I’ve been alive for almost 19 years and 6 months. I’ve made too many mistakes to count but I’ve never regretted anything. Now I regret something.
The girl I’m in love with was “stuck”, soooooooo I pushed her. Into the arms of someone else. The worst part? I did it on purpose. I did everything I could think of to piss her off so she could hate me. Now I regret it.
I just want an answer to my question.
I’m weird, silly, sometimes immature, stupid, rude, inconsiderate, and often careless; I’m a jerk, a total asshole, and so much more. You know my ugliest side, and the worst things about me; things I’ve kept to myself for years. I mean, you know how hard I am with people, you know how hard it is for me to let someone is; I’m like a labryinth, and yet, you got close to me with relative ease. I’m ridiculously far from perfect, and yet somehow, you find it within you to continue to love me. Thats more than anyone has ever done for me. That makes my heart smile. Instead of seeing you and your love for me, I’ve been focused on playing the hurt and blame game with you. No apologies will be given, as they are irrelevant to you. My words say one thing, My actions - another. My poetry; You inspire. You give me reason beyond all things to hope for the better. As far as I’m concerned….you’re the one, or rather, I hope that you are. You’ve spent so long trying to look beyond my flaws, let me prove that it was worth the time you spent.
I just lied.
I don’t give a damn about the socks….
I’m excited to spend time with you.
@CensorMyTweets: I wonder if she knows that idc about the shopping, the dinner, movies, etc….. Friday is happening just because I wanna spend time with her Shared via TweetCaster
Don’t break my heart by coming back engaged.
Secret # 1….
I’m supposed to relocate to London for my Job.
I wont be doing so because…..
Honestly..I want to stay here, so hopefully…
I can get back the girl that I am hopelessly in love with.
At times..i drift off only so that you and me can meet in my dreams.
Hold you in my arms and pretend you belong to me.
Then reality hits.
Im on some other ish.
I want what I cant have.
Always trying to touch, what I cant grab.
I want to kipnap you from my dreams and change this nightmare called reality.
Am I wrong for being a theif?
I want to steal your heart from the owner and make it mine
I want to take you from the arms your wrapped in, only to fill mine.
If I could
but I cant, so I dont.
I just day dream
Me, You, Us, We, an item.
Why do I it?
She is a beautiful mystery.
Intriguing eyes and sexy lips.
A radiant smile and she knows not what she does to me.
What little conversation we have and had is like …mental stimulation.
In this garden of life..she is forbidden fruit but I cannot fight the temptation.
These feelings are skin deep for we barely know each other and she belongs to another.
So I just day dream until these dreams becomes reality.
If it meant to happen it will be
But for now
Its just my imagination running…away with me
The Wisest Words
Dear Nanyamkah Jarie Barkwell,
because of you….I was inspired to write this poem.
Therefore, because of you, it is getting published.
My next piece will be titled the wisest words tho
A not so long relationship, One person falling in love. You’re still my angel, Sent to me from above.
We laughed and had fun, Talked about how we felt. I realy didn’t want you to know, That conversing with you, made my heart melt. You were the best part of me, Whenever we talk, my heart wishes to connect, And as I sit there and listen, My heart says “she’s still perfect”.
A handful of text messages, Wishing your love was mine to command. Dreaming that we could once again be together, Hoping that you would understand.
I love you so much, Won’t you just please come home. My heart is missing you dearly, And is painfully alone.
-Felisha DeeShun The Wisest Words
Today has been a rather bad day.
I miss my babygirl hopelessly. I’m hopelessly in love with my babygirl. My family just doesn’t work. At all. And my heart feels like its trying to break out my chest.
365 days to go tho right?