I just really think I’m a little attractive :)
I’ve been alive for almost 19 years and 6 months. I’ve made too many mistakes to count but I’ve never regretted anything. Now I regret something.
The girl I’m in love with was “stuck”, soooooooo I pushed her. Into the arms of someone else. The worst part? I did it on purpose. I did everything I could think of to piss her off so she could hate me. Now I regret it.
I just want an answer to my question.
I’m weird, silly, sometimes immature, stupid, rude, inconsiderate, and often careless; I’m a jerk, a total asshole, and so much more. You know my ugliest side, and the worst things about me; things I’ve kept to myself for years. I mean, you know how hard I am with people, you know how hard it is for me to let someone is; I’m like a labryinth, and yet, you got close to me with relative ease. I’m ridiculously far from perfect, and yet somehow, you find it within you to continue to love me. Thats more than anyone has ever done for me. That makes my heart smile. Instead of seeing you and your love for me, I’ve been focused on playing the hurt and blame game with you. No apologies will be given, as they are irrelevant to you. My words say one thing, My actions - another. My poetry; You inspire. You give me reason beyond all things to hope for the better. As far as I’m concerned….you’re the one, or rather, I hope that you are. You’ve spent so long trying to look beyond my flaws, let me prove that it was worth the time you spent.
I was there for you felisha. When you needed a place to stay, I took you in. When you came home from college and needed a place to sleep. I made room for you. But when I needed you, you were gone off with your girlfriend. I had knee surgery and needed you. And I understand that you’re young and you don’t want to feel trapped at home because every morning you have to help me. But I needed you. Donnie and Tony couldn’t help take in and out of the bath everyday. Or to help me get myself upI needed you for that and you weren’t here. You messed up because you put what you wanted and what she wanted over what I needed. Now you’re here and you’re doing your best to do everything you can. I’m glad you realized your mistake.
Angina Pectoris probably brought on by stress and strenuous activities. I’m prescribing nitroglycerin which should help ease the pain